a lil moment in my life

Just came across

2010-07-11T01:37:00.002+08:00

I still remember how people pulling me down mentally and physically.. I was left torn apart..

It hurts when it was from the people that you loved and trusted the most..

I was so fed up with them..

because I know there is no point for letting people to pull down and i must trust myself..

There is no point to pity myself and for better i must prove to them everything is wrong..

Thanked god for sending me good friends besides me.. They were my best companion and everything for me.. People always say that family know the best for us and understand us the most.. But yet i think that my best friend understand me the most and being there for me without fail..

FML

2010-07-06T19:07:00.002+08:00

F*** i've never been this fat after 4 years.. I promised myself i need to slim down at least 5kgs before JINJIN's back!!! and i can't wait to see her :)

Btw, i miss wearing my white shorts and my red tops!!! those were my fav but now i can't wear neither of it.. F***..

This is so depressing... wtf... FML

D.E.T.E.R.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N

SHIT

2010-06-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

Can you please tell me how to like a person that making you so depressed?
How can i pretend to be happy when i am unhappy?
How to show my unhappy face with a smiley face?
I can't fake it...
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
I need someone to understand me... even though you had ask me to ignore but how can i when i need to face them daily? I am a person with feelings especially i am more to sensitive...

Best to cover myself inside a blanket and start sobbing.. FUCK it!!!

Imbalance

2010-06-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

*FUCK!*
I don't know what is wrong with me...
My mood swings like in directional wind...
I really hate it...
I am so sorry B for screaming and yelling at you..

DAMN!!!

Damage

2010-06-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

It hurts when i confront what i dislikes..
Maybe i'm too over but i want the best for him..

but i still love u lots..

* FREEDOM *

2010-06-12T11:23:00.002+08:00

1 DAY i will BE

*gembira-nyer*

*amboi-amboi tengah berangan*

Unchained door

2010-05-26T01:58:00.002+08:00

God closed the door and will it be open again??

It has been a question for me ever since shits happened in this 2 weeks..

You gave me everything but you shove it..

I'm confused....

D.E.M.O.T.I.V.A.T.E.D

2010-04-29T15:17:00.003+08:00

*DENG*

After a week plus of exercising and cutting down my food...

wtf i gained 2kgs..

This is so DEPRESSING...

SHIT!!!!!

:'(

I AM SO S.A.D!!!

i Hate my weight gain!!!

Malas

2010-04-22T16:19:00.001+08:00

Damn!!! I am gettin lazier..

I procrastinate a lot.....

I'm officially a lazy PIG...

Izit because of the weight gained that causes me became so lazy??

I wonder....

Longkang

2010-04-15T20:04:00.004+08:00

I think i am worn out.. I am emotionally drained..

I am just so sick of standing in people's shoe and not taking care of my own feelings..

Especially, when i am not being appreciated and being degraded..

It hurts and i should start putting my own shield..

Lesson should be learnt and not to repeat..

So learn from mistakes..

Just foook all the shooooot....

P/s: I am so sorry..

emo ammo elmo

2010-04-14T19:44:00.002+08:00

I just don't feel gooood...

winks

2010-04-04T17:51:00.003+08:00

YES!!!!
hehe finally i almost fulfill my wishlist for this year :)
....weee....

Finally,

~new handbag~

~DKNY sunnies~

yay!!! with special love for my baby for driving me around.. plus spoiling me :)

Magical moments

2010-03-27T17:13:00.002+08:00

Dreaming, I must be dreaming
or am I really lying here with you?
Baby, you take me in your arms
And though I'm wide awake
I know my dream is coming true
And Oh I just fall in love again
just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go I just fall in love again
and when I do, I can't help myself
I fall in love with you
Magic, it must be magic
The way I hold you when the night just seems to fly
Easy for you to take me to a star
Heaven is that moment when I look into your eyes.
And Oh I just fall in love again
just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go I just fall in love again
and when I do, I can't help myself
I fall in love with you
Can't help myself
I fall in love with you

Life is such a pain in ASS

2010-03-05T13:25:00.003+08:00

WTH!!! FML when i think of the result!!!
*sobs*
dean list sudah terbang away, cgpa jatuh masuk longkang...
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
AKU BENCI BETOI DENGAN POMPUAN ITU!!!!
ITU MEDIA POMPUAN
Because of you, i am depressed!!!

I SERIOUSLY NEED SHOPPING THERAPY!!!!
ANYONE??
Where is my kakis?
moomoo?eggegg?mien?billy?

However, with you, the dark sky seems to be brighter whenever i'm down :)
LOVE YOU, B!!

...................................

2010-01-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

AKU NI BODOH!!!!
please prove to me that i am not that dumb in life...

Malas

2010-01-10T17:07:00.002+08:00

Kinda malas to update but will update soon after my class resume...
haha!!!
so lame

PeiJin Tan

2010-01-08T17:09:00.003+08:00

Dear, I'm so sorry that i make you feel that way.. Do you still remember our promise before you leaved to UK?? No matter what happen we will always be as close as last time.. I do not know what happen but i still keep myself update through you fb.. Streamyx suxs all the time that caused a lot of problems.. There is no gap between us alright.. Please don't think of this.. Because no matter what you are still my best friend.. What do you think of 10yrs friendship??? It is not easy to build but because of our trust to maintain our friendship alright.. Don't be emo I am waiting for your arrival.. Clock is ticking and I'm waiting for you to come back from UK...
TAN PEIJIN don't be siao k!!!! don't think too much.. or else I am so gonna spank your ass kao kao!!! No matter what I love u lots!!!! Do you still remember Jason Mraz's song??? our song?? LUCKY!!! the lyrics is just for us alright!!!

Tell Him

2009-12-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's mean to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has today.

Never let him go

UPDATES

2009-12-19T15:48:00.009+08:00

Gosh, ah moi been a lazy ass and also a sick pig for quite sometime.. Finally, i am hardworking for a day to update my blog!!! :p

1st: My birthday celebration

On the 27th November 2009,

With my gang in fitou, Desa Parkcity :)
Well that night i had a great celebration with them and im so drunk too after that night :p
Drank too much for the action game.. aiks.. regretted for drinking that much plus I humiliated myself in front of sepet :(

28th November 2009,

With my kwah sepet in La Casa, Desa Parkcity..
Peijin, Haw Lun and him pakat and gave me a big surprise :)
Peijin and Haw Lun bought me a Fossil Watch for my 21st,
B, gave me a bouquet of roses and a musical box..
After the dinner, both of us went for Twilight!!!
OMFG, Jacob's body is super CHUN!!!!

29th November 2009

Morning, went for breakfast for my family and night time B, fetch me out and celebrated with me.. His surprise was super duper funny in a way.. He wanted to bring me to Kl Tower for celebration but when i entered his car.. He was happily telling me and then he ask me, " IS KL TOWER IN FEDERAL HOTEL?" OMFG that is so super hilarious can?? He thought that KL Tower is in Federal Hotel.. Neways, we went to Kl Tower but it was fully booked due to someone's wedding.. So ended up, we went to Pavillion's Sakae Sushi.. Haha as he promised memorable 21st... but because of his funny blur part..

*aiks, i was so excited until i forgot to take pictures with him :(*

30th November 2009

Bora Asmara, Tmn Tun with my diamonds :)

Wee we had a great time there and i likey the ambiance there :)
Super memorable and they gave me a present surprise.. tadaaa its a sexy baju tidur :p
Aiks apa they mau ah?? kekekeke

1st December 2009,

Secret Recipe with my Winnie dear :)

Hehe, she asked me out and we was supposedly going to another italian restaurant but unfortunately it was closed and you can see how cute was Winnie's disappointed facey :p
Then, we went to secret recipe and makan.. She and Li Wei bought me 2 headbands :) yay they knew that i likey headbands <3

Last but not least,
4th December 2009,

My crib with my kepong jimuis.. Unfortunately, Jing li is not here :( Kinda miss her..
Miss her weird facial expression that make me laughed like mad woman.. kekeke

Peeps, If you wanna see more pictures pls view it through my facebook.. hehe

Then,
after my birthday celebrations, I'm so super f***ed up with my exams and i"m super tired and sick for a week plus.. *sobs* But i would like to say tq very very muchie to my sepet for taking care of me during my "dying time" because i was so super sick.. I almost can't attend both of my papers.. I fainted twice for my Graphic design paper in the morning before my paper... It was super scary k!!!! Arghhhh, now after the dying moments and now i'm super bored for my holiday!!! No work No money No place to go!!! I wanna go for a holiday!!!! Ish I am super duper desperate for a retreat!!!!! :(

WISH ME LUCK!!

1st Monthiversary

2009-12-11T17:01:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st Monthiversary B!!!!

Muacks!!!

Because you loved me

2009-12-08T14:56:00.002+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful, baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me, ooh, baby

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe, I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because
I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me, the tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

* This post is dedicated to my dearest MR H.. *
By looking at the lyrics it reminds me of a lot of things that we had been through because for once and now we are back together..
I still remember days when we are "normal friends" after our dull moments back in june.. Whenever I'm down, you will always be there for me..
You will call me out and fed me with McFlurry Oreo because you know that it makes me feel good after eating it when i'm sad.. Telling me jokes to create a smile on my face..
You read me blog and response to me asap without telling me that he had read it..
When I had any problems you will always be a good listener without hesitating and often offer me help..
You give me unconditional responses that makes me feel that I'm important in any moments.. You are the one that had shown me the brightest star in the sky or the brightest rainbow ever in my life...
You are making me contented in any way and B, thanks for being who you are and shower me with your unconditional love :)

I LOVE YOU

ouch

2009-12-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

I'm effing depressed now!!!! I'm super afraid or paranoid or whatsoever that i might fail for my gen psyc paper!!!! It might be the 1st paper im failing... WTF... he is making me mad!!!! I'm so so so stress!!!! Pray hard n study hard hopefully i can get through it.. *sobs*

scratch scratch

2009-12-06T16:48:00.000+08:00

Saya sudah mau scratch scratch my kepala.... aiks... so FAN!!!!!!

Overwhelmed

2009-12-04T16:48:00.002+08:00

Thanks everyone for my birthday celebrations from desa parkcity, secret recipe and to bora asmara.. I'm kinda lazy to upload the pictures and tonight I'm gonna celebrate with my kepong darlings.. Maybe i should upload after this celebration.. stay tuned :)

Btw, thanks Mr H for everything, even though his "memorable" birthday celebration was special in a way.. I just love to c his blurness that shows the cute side of him.. Thanks, B for everything.. Because without you, I think a lot of things won't be successful :) Thanks for taking care of me and be there for me when I need you.. I *hearts* you.. muacks

Sugar rush

2009-11-28T10:35:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for the night falls and sunrise in the morning!!!!!

Btw, thanks for the early birthday celebration and the presents.. :)
there will be updates on the pics soon i guess.. haha

Babes

2009-11-26T15:14:00.003+08:00

To my dearest moomoo and egg egg,

Sorry because recently I'm like kinda neglected both of you.. I am here sincerely apologize... I don't know what happened but i can see that both having problems.. But no matter what i will always support both of your decisions and be with you all whenever both needs me.. Because both are my precious diamonds k :) I will find more time to spend with you all because this term our subs are different.. Sorry for everything alright.. Muacks.. I *hearts* both of you...

Words

2009-11-24T18:12:00.002+08:00

Today I told mummy about Mr H but i was shocked with her reaction... So funny la my mummy.. I thought that she will scold me badly that i should focus more on my education.. But what came into my surprise was this is my conversation between me n mummy..

me: Miiiiiii, I wanna tell you something..

mum: What???

me: Recently, i'd been going out often with someone.. To make you less worried of me going out with who...I am in a relationship...

mum: Girl, you should change your attitude ok.. Don't be like "dai siu jie" anymore.. Talk nicely and don't go out so often with your friends... Be a good girl to your bf...

me: (wtf) since when im a bad girl???

Thank god i found you

2009-11-23T19:32:00.001+08:00

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
I don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you (I'm begging you)
I was lost without you (so lost without you)
My every wish and every dream (every dream, every dream)
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight (brought the sunlight)
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you (lost without you baby)
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life (whole life)
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Sweet baby I'm so thankful
I found you

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you

Birthday

2009-11-21T16:43:00.003+08:00

Can i say that im depressing over choosing the places for my birthday???
yea with michs n mien at least i know where to celebrate..
my gang at least they will plan for me.. but..
what's with my celebration with Mr H??? *sobs*
I don want it to be too "kao kei" can ah?
I dunno what is the budget and all..
It's like we just got back together and if i spend too much sounds so wrong maybe people might think that im materialistic... and he just ask me not to go too far.... I want my 21st to be memorable can??
I don't wanna make big fuss...

Maybe i should just follow what zx said to me.. cook urself la and bake ur own cake then it will be super memorable.. agree??

1 down

2009-11-20T11:02:00.001+08:00

yay!!! stupid g.design paper down left gen psyc.. but Shit that is a tough paper for me.. GOD BLAST ME!!!!

A slice of me

2009-11-18T19:17:00.002+08:00

Everyone did mistakes in life and to make things right you should always admit and change it. But, to my baby love if i did anything wrong please forgive me alright :)

moments

2009-11-17T16:46:00.002+08:00

Cherish every moments that we shared together.. I just wanna say i HEART u!!!

love,
keshin

updates

2009-11-16T15:50:00.003+08:00

Dear peepz,

My birthday is ard the corner so remember to wish me!!! hahaha... I'm still planning on it since Mr H doesn't noe how to plan!!!! so babi rite.. ish.... well actually most important is that i want all my close friends to be with me and nth much :) just a warm session with all of you will be great!!! Unfortunately besties will not be here and its kinda heart breaking.. ish!!! im gonna miss u girls.. *sobs* I hope that i will enjoy this 21st and not agonizing over it.. swt...

Arghhhhhh i hate mid terms and its ard the corner... luckily both oso MCQ.. kekekkekee which means i no nit to bang too much on my head :p

p/s: Mr H, i hate u when it rains!!!!! because i miss you even more whenever it rains :(

Finally

2009-11-11T15:06:00.001+08:00

Well i believe everything is worth waiting... patience?? yes it did pays off everything... yes i can see the rainbow is getting brighter :)

Here I am

2009-11-09T17:10:00.003+08:00

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Key

2009-11-07T10:41:00.005+08:00

Waiting with patience....Patience is the golden key for.....???

but

What's with the aging?? wtf im going to be 21 soon... and im afraid... gosh... im like damn!!!! keshin u r getting older!!!!

breathe

2009-11-06T13:38:00.001+08:00

Do u know how it feels??

Could it be you??

2009-11-03T15:48:00.001+08:00

Close my eyes
I try to hide
I'm listening to my voice inside
What's on to tell me right or wrong
I need to know where I belong
For all the days I ran away
I never dare to ask me who could I be
Who can bring back the love that's inside me

Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could It be you
Or do I break away
So leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true I don't have a clue
Could it be you

Too many things said and done
Sure if you could be the one
To dry the tears I left behind
To chase these demons off my mind

I see your face
Touch your skin
Is this a fight
We both can't win
Sometimes the truth is miles apart
But it's hard to break your heart

Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could It be you
Or do I break away
So leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true I don't have a clue
Could it be you

Baby i don't wanna waste your love
Though it's hard to just walk on
Well will this hurt be neverending
Where do I belong

Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could it be you
Or do I break away
Just to leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true i don't have a clue
Could it be you

Maybe it is me
Used to plan to see that it's you
For everything I am everything I need lies in you

Tug-of-war

2009-10-29T15:51:00.003+08:00

Pulling and pulling and pulling.. Tired of pulling??? tell me about it.. who is the winner???

What matters the most???

2009-10-27T20:45:00.003+08:00

"every inch, cm and mm that u think doesn't matter does matter"

Size, height and length is not the matter... But the distance of knowing you or getting close is important.. Sometimes people do think that it doesn't matter but tiny bitsy micro nano does matter to me.. Lil things can draw a sweet smile on my face eventhough it is not a very important thing.. But what matters the most is things around me that is important for me.. You, ME, Everyone and ppl that i loved..

As im falling

2009-10-19T13:38:00.004+08:00

"If you love someone, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be." -Anonymous-

Taken it from my jinjin's blog.. But this is true.. IF He/She is fated to be with you no matter what it will always come back to u :)

Well it has been a long time the last time i updated my blog.. BEen very very busy with my hw, classes and also job.. Arghhhh i need money very badly i would say... Im planning to have a birthday party of my own this year since im officially 21 :) weeeeee im at a legal age for doing anything... hahahah where is my gold key??? Possibility will be in genting, pd or a nice restaurant in Kl/Selangor... I wish i can make this happen as i din reli have a birthday party since when i was 13 yrs old??? pathetic rite?? but last yr was fun because there are lots of surprises by my friends n cousins... hahah.. But somehow i wish both of them will be there for me although they are in UK... My bestie, carey n jin jin.. muacks..

I miss DADDY!!! i mean my bro's father... There were times when i tried to avoid him last time and now i can feel his important role in my life... The only person that makes me feel comfortable at home.. I miss days when i was before 12yrs old... He took me as his real daughter eventhough im not.. HE will nvr neglect me and showered me with unconditional love.. DADDY, I LOVE YOU!!! Now, i don dare to find him when there is anything that i wanted to talk to him because he got his own daughter already.. At 1st it was weird when i heard this news and its kinda hurting me.. But his 1st expression was faster hugged me and telling his ex wife(my mum) that no matter what keshin is still my daughter rite... it was sweet.. But somehow i would say that no matter what own daughter is more precious then ex stepdaughter... *sobs* He is the greatest thing that GOD has given to me eventhough he is not here for me at this moment..

OK... no more emo... hehehehe 2 more weeks to go...... Our PINK PARTY hosted by the 4 birthday girls which includes Michelle Tan, Michelle Tee, Cindy and ME... weeeeee..... Aiks i haven't hunt for my pink dress as im so so so so so busy... ok keshin is dying soon... Give me more oxygen!!!! I need to breathe!!!!! ISH ISH!!!

*There will be more updates... stay tune.....*

From today onwards

2009-09-29T13:42:00.003+08:00

I should love myself more!!!! protect myself!!!! never be a stupid girl anymore!!! live for my life!!!! ignore shits happening ard..none of my business!!! be more selfish!!!!!!!!!!

50-50

2009-09-27T10:30:00.002+08:00

Wtf!!!! its like so stupid now.... i tel u my mum is like killing me... do or don't do also i will die... previously if i don helped out on dat work, kai ma n her will screw me upside down... now i've taken the job but because recently been kinda busy working n studyin plus assignments i can't do that extra work.. i kena screwed up by her.. wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf.. FUCK!!!!!! now she won't even give me car allowance... i fucking angry now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

updates

2009-09-27T01:50:00.006+08:00

Recently kinda busy.. hehehe... too many plans for me to siao... kekekeke paiseh la... welll i attended tan tan's birthday on 23rd n 25th went for monash ball with billy :) And weekend will be working.. ISH!!!!!! tomorrow i need to work again.. sien ah!!!!! and im lazy!!! but i can't wait to go for a short trip wif my cousins in cameron highlands!!! yay!!!!! 3d2n there in hsbc bungalow!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Well im showing all my dearests on my pics in tantan's birthday bash n monash ball <3

*with the girls*

*belle, tantan,moomoo,louise and moi*

*segi babes*

*moomoo and me*

*me gila-ing with this pic* *damn suka lo cuz i looked thin in it :p*

*poor sick birthday baby and me* muacksss

last but not least

*billy and me in monash ball* i heart u babe!!! arghhhh too bad silly is not there with us!!!

heart racing

2009-09-22T17:12:00.002+08:00

Omg my heart beats seriously fast!!!!! been sweating since ytd.. aiks... am i dying soon??? Pls don't!!!!! Btw, I can't wait to attend egg egg's birthday party in luna bar!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee... need to think what to wear again.. aiks and i'm still very indecisive with my ball's dress... ish ish!!! slap me pls!!!!!!!!

Sakit

2009-09-21T17:02:00.001+08:00

My kepala is sooooo sooooo f***ing sakit!!!!! Couldn't sleep for whole night.. wth.... panadol seems to be useless for me.. *sobs*

As sweet as lollipop!!!

2009-09-19T10:34:00.006+08:00

Omg!! I'm so touched when i read moomootea's blog.. A post dedicated just for me.. *sobs* Darling do you know how sweet are you??? I seriously loves you lots.. Muacks.. I will be myself, treasure things ard me and not hurting myself.. I will listen to you!!! hahaha what a bad 1st impression was i to you.. haha dai ka jie pulak!!! But seriously that time my rambut was very blonde la.. so fugly :p You know what you, tan tan and cindy meant a lot for me... Because We shared all the special moments together in college.. *hearts*

Another post is on my paintball adventure... Omg its like so not my game!!! ouch kena shot 3times... on my left hand n my kaki!!!! so pain!!! wanna see my bruises??

But yet we enjoyed the excitement!!! woohoo!! :p
Pictures of the Charlie Angels

After paintball, I drove moomootea out for dinner and hell yeah my diet gone into drain.. You know why?? Because we whacked up pizzas.. wahahaha.. gone baby gone!!! :p but i enjoyed moments with her..muacks...

Last but not least, I'm posting a pic of me and my greatest jewel on earth!!!

*hearts*

sobs

2009-09-17T09:27:00.000+08:00

Aiks its difficult to please my family members.. *sobs* congratulation once again im sick!!! wth later sumore nit to work.. apa ni?? ish

A lil Confession

2009-09-14T17:46:00.002+08:00

Omg i felt seriously bad after doing it.. But only a few of you ppl will know bout it since only my close friends knows bout my blog.. today i went to puff puff break with ah singh,johanna n zairin!!! oh gosh.. my last time was like so so so long ago.. ouch.. sorry to break my promise to those that i promised before.. I mean carey, jin n moomootee... And ah singh owe me a slap!!!! im so gonna slap him on wed... He lost in the poker game and he ran away.. wth i was supposed to slap his face!!!!! ish.. ball less =.="

K.C.U.F

2009-09-10T14:58:00.002+08:00

Arghhhh.. someone please feed me with goood foood especially chocolates and MCFLURRY OREO!!! I need my emo food.. WtH i'm seriously stucked with my journals.. ARGHHHHHH i seriously bite people now!!!!!!! and carey is leaving :'( my darlings are leaving me far apart.. yerrr... so sad.. and the good news is im going to MONASH BALL with billy!!! weeeee.... and wth i don't know what to wear.. aiks... okie now i nit to fuck myself up with my journals.. ouch... it hurts :p

Apa ni???

2009-09-03T09:59:00.003+08:00

Wth!!! Everything doesn't seems right when i woke up!!! I just feel like Biting and Biting!!! I need something to fill up this emptiness!! I just realized something again maybe i should stop getting close with my guy friends or else there will be some misunderstanding... Is there anything that can be replaced?? Or to heal it back??? I need all my girlfriends!!! :(

I love you

2009-08-29T00:41:00.004+08:00

I'm seriously sorry for not driving you to coffee shop that morning.. It doesn't mean that i don't care about you anymore.. I love you more than anyone else... except your other 2 daughters.. I'm seriously guilty for not sending you and i should start driving you to market and be a good god daughter... After i heard what 2nd sister told me that one of the aunty said that she can see your health deteriorate compared to last time.. last time you can carry heavy things and walked fast but now after you went for bypass, you can't walk fast like last time and she sees that you are tired at times.. do you know how hurt am i when i heard it from 2nd sister.. i didn't know that you are tired.. Sorry mama... I love you lots... I should accompany you more often and bring you out.. Please don't think that people neglected you and one thing for sure is that i won't do that to u because u are seriously important in my life...

UNPREDICTABLE

2009-08-28T00:10:00.001+08:00

YES

keshin is unpredictable.. i can change my decisions anytime i want.. wanna read my mind???

Your memories doesn't belongs to me

2009-08-25T14:05:00.001+08:00

Sad always wayward always discouraged use of pneumatic
Will be the best in the past would be the most crushing part of your eyes locked to the
Lovelorn lovelorn enough patience not believe it is doomed
On the most black of the world in the most moving moment of light breath belongs to you
Even though many of them altogether with the ever remember you for a romantic love
But the commitment of all to be good-bye to listen to
What may from time to change color oh baby ~

Remember that night with you tonight, Taraxacum think the wind freshened happens
I admit I am no longer subject to recall
Perhaps you recall the
Sound of the night with you tonight, remember that water standing on the earth to listen to their own
Do you go back to always pious farewell
Who can blame me for always too emotional

Lovelorn lovelorn have to remember there agreement inert
When the ideal world, when the ideal moment because you love me no points
Even though many of them altogether with the ever remember you for a romantic love
But the commitment of all to be good-bye to listen to
What may from time to change color oh baby ~

Remember that night with you tonight, Taraxacum think the wind freshened happens
I admit I am no longer subject to recall
Perhaps you recall the
Sound of the night with you tonight, remember that water standing on the earth to listen to their own
Do you go back to always pious farewell
Who can blame me for always too emotional

Remember that night with you tonight, Taraxacum think the wind freshened happens
Memories are no longer subject to me (no longer subject to me) I admit
Perhaps you recall the
Sound of the night with you tonight, remember that water standing on the earth to listen to their own
Is it farewell you (ha ~) back is always pious
Who can blame me (who can blame me ~) is always too emotional

p/s: its a song that i don't really understand but its seriously nice that i wanted to share.. what's life abt when the memories does not belongs to us anymore...

Silence

2009-08-25T13:46:00.000+08:00

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo zhan zai zhe li
I’m left standing here with the piano beside me

梦想中属于我们的婚礼
meng xiang zhong shu yu wo men de hun li
The wedding I’ve dreamt for us

却成了单人结婚进行曲
que cheng le dan ren jie hun jin xing qu
Has become a solo wedding march

在这场爱情较力的拔河里
zai zhe chang ai qing jiao li de ba he li
In this tug-of-war of love,

爱我还是爱你
ai wo hai shi ai ni
Will you love me or yourself?

你选择了自己 wo~
ni xuan ze le zi ji
You chose yourself

撒娇的可爱的
sa jiao de ke ai de
Childish… adorable…

粘人的爱哭的
nian ren de ai ku de
Clingy… crybaby…

照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
zhao pian li ceng jing de dou shi ni xi huan de
[The person] in the photos is everything you once loved

如今我还在原地
ru jin wo hai zai yuan di
Now I remain at the starting point

你却走回你的记忆
ni que zou hui ni de ji yi
Yet you went back to your memories

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
ni shuo wo ai ni tai duo jiu kuai yao ba ni yan mo
You said I love you too much, you’re almost drowning

你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
ni hai pa xing fu duan zan yi miao jiu beng luo
You fear happiness is only for an instant, that it will fall apart in a second

分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
fen kai shi yi zhong jie tuo rang ni hao hao de xiang guo
Separation is a release; it will make you think

我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong ni shi bu shi neng gou gei wo
Whether you can give me the happiness I want

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
ni shuo wo gei ni tai duo que bu neng gei wo shen me
You said I give you too much, but you can’t give back

分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
fen bu qing ji qing cheng nuo yong heng huo mi huo
Can’t tell passion, commitment, eternity and infatuation apart

爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
ai qing shi yi dao shang kou wo men ge zi ku tong
Love is a wound, we bear the pain on our own

沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
Silence is my last act of kindness… because I love you so

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo zhan zai zhe li
I’m left standing here with the piano beside me

梦想中属於我们的婚礼
meng xiang zhong shu yu wo men de hun li
The wedding I’ve dreamt for us

安静了在我枕边的梦里
an jing le zai wo zhen bian de meng li
Was silenced in the dreams of the person beside me

我知道相爱原本就不容易
wo zhi dao xiang ai yuan ben jiu bu rong yi
I know loving someone isn’t easy to begin with

爱不是一加一
ai bu shi yi jia yi
Love is not ‘one plus one’

努力就有结局 wo~
nu li jiu you jie ju
[Where] hard work guarantees a happy ending

撒娇的可爱的
sa jiao de ke ai de
Childish… adorable…

粘人的爱哭的
nian ren de ai ku de
Clingy… crybaby…

照片里曾经的都是爱着你的
zhao pian li ceng jing de dou shi ai zhe ni de
[The person] in the photo once loved you

脸颊的泪还温热
lian jia de lei hai wen re
The tears on my cheeks are still warm

却没有人握我的手
que mei you ren wo wo de shou
But no one is here to hold my hand

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
ni shuo wo ai ni tai duo jiu kuai yao ba ni yan mo
You said I love you too much, you’re almost drowning

你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
ni hai pa xing fu duan zan yi miao jiu beng luo
You fear happiness is only for an instant, that it will fall apart in a second

分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
fen kai shi yi zhong jie tuo rang ni hao hao de xiang guo
Separation is a release; it will make you think

我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我
wo xiang yao de na pian tian kong ni shi bu shi neng gou gei wo
Whether you can give me the happiness I want

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
ni shuo wo gei ni tai duo que bu neng gei wo shen me
You said I give you too much, but you can’t give back

分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
fen bu qing ji qing cheng nuo yong heng huo mi huo
Can’t tell passion, commitment, eternity and infatuation apart

爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
ai qing shi yi dao shang kou wo men ge zi ku tong
Love is a wound, we bear the pain on our own

沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
chen mo shi wo zui hou wen rou shi yin wei wo tai ai ni
Silence is my last act of kindness… because I love you so

Never Ever

2009-08-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

I know you think that I just be trippin' on ya
Boy you see, this ain't how I normally be
But I can't help this jealousy
Ooh it's taking over me, ooh I'm falling way to deep
Without you by my side I feel like I can't eat or sleep

But I, gotta come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'mma let it go tonight, Ain't nothin'
Coverin' my eyes
Ain't gotta see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby

But I, gotta come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I dont wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
(Girl you better listen)

Alright, alright, alright, okay...
I see ya point, I must admit
I grind, I grind, I grind all day
This paper's what I'm trynna get
Now normally when I'm paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision
And if it's really like that lady, just turn on ya television
And there go Young, I said there go Young, you trynna get it did
Just know I gets it done, she love the I cheat
She love the way I move, I sho, I show up to her
Shows wit bout 100 goons
Its black this, black that
Black card, black flags
I really hope that's money that ya'll got off in them black bags (ha ha)
808's & heartbreak,
State troopers & interstates,
Giving me a bad vibe,
Guess I'm just a bad guy

Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya

<3

2009-08-07T02:19:00.001+08:00

Productive holiday

2009-08-03T13:32:00.002+08:00

Well like what i wrote for my title... Im seriously too productive until i can die.. im exhausted... need to work for 6 days a week, 10 hours without proper lunch break.. Everyday after i got back home.. I hardly can feel my body.. Both of my legs and hands numb already!!!! aiks.. haha but somehow my boss is a very good lady and im happy working under her :)

During this holiday, I miss a lot ppl esp Moomoo and Tan tan!!!! miss seeing moo bullying tan tan.. hahas....

:'(

2009-07-27T20:53:00.003+08:00

Maybe if i don't talk that much or remain silent.. It would be the best option.. When i tried to explain, you think that im defending which im not... Im trying to tell what's on my mind so you can understand me.. But yet you think that im defensive... If i don't value this sisterhood i wouldn't have keep finding you to explain.. I'm not trying to hide the stories but im explaining it.. Maybe being too straight forward ain't a good thing... I just wanna tell you that I love you a lot thats why im telling you all this to avoid miunderstanding.. But yet you don believe me and said that im disgusting because you think that im trying to tell you how pitiful am i.. Which i'm not...

I think in the future i should just remain silent just like the past.. I would prefer to keep everything inside my heart and solve it by myself... Im tired explaining and my eyes seriously tired..

Judgmental

2009-07-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

I hate it when people being judgmental on me.. Wth i seriously hate it can i just do whatever i want and not letting people to judge.. Whatever i'm doing I know everyone is saying bad things abt me.. So what?? why on earth i wanna care so much?? can i just do whatever without thinking what YOU PEOPLE will judge on me...

YES, i know that i'm a playful person but compared to last time i changed a lot.. OK!!! Yes, last time i just play without thinking of the consequences and i regretted so now i won't repeat the same mistakes.. BUT U PEOPLE STILL THINKS THAT I FOOL AROUND WITHOUT STUDYING.. WTH.. Did i flunk any subjects at this moment?? NO rite... I'm not a nerdy type of person but i did put effort in my studies.. SO STOP SAYING I DON STUDY!!!! EFF you.. Even if i played but i will study even harder to replace back the guilt...

Second, I did not fool around with my relationship ok!!!! Stop judging me based on my failure relationships.. Not that i want to but i can't stop it from failing.. I do want a good relationship but at this moment i don't even dare to think far because i SEE it with my own eyes that good guys will always betray their wives or gfs.. So??? Just let the flow goes naturally.. I won't resist when there is a relationship waiting for me but I don't dare to put hopes.. Because I know that every time i put hopes for sure i will hurt even deeper.. So why on earth i still wanna hurt myself??? I need to protect my heart you know... AND IM NOT A SLUT OR BITCH... and stop saying that relationship will affects my studies.. I know to differentiate and plan on my timing... SO SHUT THE EFF UP... IM old enough to think....

I know that people are saying bad things about my future... Even last time 2 of my cousins also being judged at the same point.. I would tell you no matter where and what, I know my limit and I will continue with my studies... SO?? SHUT UP!!!! I didn't use your money and so why you want to judge?? I'm not begging for money or what so ever shit... AND I DID save money ok... I got my own planning and i don't simply bang myself..

STOP ALL THE NONSENSE OK!!! JUST MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!!

Out of nowhere

2009-07-24T12:08:00.003+08:00

I believe when you force yourself to do something, It will reminds you even deeper... Why want to press yourself so hard? Stop being harsh to yourself.. You know you can be better..

Life is just too short, so just enjoy it to the fullest!!!!!!! :)

I wanted you

2009-07-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

Final decision

2009-07-22T16:03:00.004+08:00

Let go everything for goood.. Don't ever consider about hopes.. Just be myself and enjoy what life should be.. Its good enough to have you as my friend... I should just appreciate what is gifted...

arghhhhh

2009-07-21T12:31:00.002+08:00

im sleepy!!!!! i don't feel like taking design paper!!!! ish...

Im so gonna slap myself... cuz deep inside im still wondering.................

How important .......................

im still a wandering soul....

slap slap

2009-07-20T15:12:00.003+08:00

argh i hate it when you sweet talk to me.. You are too casanova.. Fuck!!!!!!!
stop relating me and you by using songs...

1st song was im yours by jason mraz
2nd song, 远在身边
last song, MISIA - Everything

What the helll!!!!!

melts

2009-07-19T22:28:00.004+08:00

You're like incompleted jigsaw puzzle, waiting for someone to complete u. I hope to add that last piece in and plus i would even frame u up and hang nicely in my house.

my house where i store my heart
I will catch you when you fall
just before u fall,
shout my name

*omg u are so sweet!!!* but you are too sweet to be own...

My life is incomplete without someone that still can't be replaced at this moment.. I miss that special person...

Additional

2009-07-17T14:47:00.003+08:00

Quoted by Robbie Tan

"keshin is ego on the surface she wants to preserve it,but deep inside she's not that ego,she gives in easily and she's unpredictable with her thoughts. "

SERIOUS???

Thoughts

2009-07-17T13:33:00.003+08:00

Maybe because of my itchiness and not being able to stand at my will.. I should just focus in my education and not in other things.. People come and go but future is always in my hand..

So?? Be smart and think wisely babe!!!!

Fear and Dilemma

2009-07-16T20:16:00.001+08:00

As usual my life is full of ups and downs.. Drama here and there.. Well this is life about rite.. I'm seriously very tired now at the moment.. Rainbow that i saw doesn't shine that bright and i can see that it's dull now.. Sometimes i'm seriously sick of everything happened.. I tried my best to improved myself and i know that i'm seriously stubborn.. Spoke to Zong xian(buddy)and both of us got closed together during our ibio class.. A guy that is closed to me for 2 months can see that I'm a serious ego, independent and i act like a guy.. Why can't i just act like a normal girl instead of being so hard on myself.. Sometimes i need someone to pamper with and not to be like a guy.. Sometimes i hide a lot of things deep inside but do anyone knows bout it? You can see that i smile a lot but does it means that im happy deep inside??

When it comes to relationship, I seriously don't know how to please a person and most of the time i take steps at the wrong time.. I just hate myself sometimes.. or maybe.. what goes around, comes around??? Karma?? I sincerely apologize to guys that i hurt before.. Maybe with intention or without intention.. I don't like a guy that take me as a guy instead of gf.. But my bad, i talk like a guy(even though i wear girly clothes), ego and i don't like my bf to overlead me.. wth!!!! Can i please wake up!!!! Fuck me!!!! But seriously, in this 3 yrs i changed a lot.. The past 2 relationships was bad.. I hate myself for being dumb and yet ego.. When i'm in a relationship, i seriously love the person that im with and sometimes i just act dumbly and gives in easily i would say.. Even though i told myself there might be no future but yet why i still wanna give in so much???? I AM SO FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!! Please love me and not hurting me!!!! Plus please don't play with my feelings.. Seriously my heart is super fragile, it will break easily and handle it with SUPER CARE!!!

MY biggest fear at this moment : bad relationship

My biggest dilemma: should i follow what zong xian said to me?? BE more girly and don't be ego or else a guy will treat me like a brother instead of gf...

TELL ME BOUT IT!!!

:'(

2009-07-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

Today is the worst day for this month.. Since morning tried to print out my notes but need to go to few places and everytime also unsuccessful.. Finally went to library, got to print out my slides.. Guess who i met??? Mr X kong!!! He seriously freaks me off.. This is the conversation:

X kong: Hi, keshin

Me: errrrr

X kong: oh yea i not suppose to talk to you..

ME: shaking

X kong: (walk away and come back) can i talk to you another topic besides that thing?

Me: looking down n wanted to cry out because his face is seriously scary with his deep and dark eye bags.. Take all my notes and run away..

Msged Mr H but he don't even bother about me then i called Moomoo.. Ran down to her class and spoke to Cindy with watery eyes.. What a bad day for me???

To Mr H,

Sorry for scolding you yesterday because i was seriously stressed out.. I seriously feel bad.. :(

<3,

keshin

DIVORCED

2009-07-12T09:56:00.003+08:00

My JIN JIN just divorced me!!! :'( sob sob.. she don't love me anymore.. Go UK got new love jor.. Don't want me d..

Random

2009-07-11T20:06:00.012+08:00

As usual I'm a procrastinator.. I'm still lazying, don't feel like doing my extra assignment and i should start studying.. Oh shit...

Every weekdays as usual after class i will stick to moomoo, tan tan n cindy mui mui.. Makan and tidur there just like my own house :) PLus i love to kacau her big bird.. i should add that as my hobby.. You see big bird can do acrobatic.. woohoo...

Besides that, im still a stoner in ms chiong's class.. Im lazy and plus its a morning class.. I dislike morning class.. Just got my timetable.. I will be taking human growth and interviewing next term.. I just love the timing.. Only monday and wednesday classes :)

Thursday went for movie with Mr H and after movie went for chee cheong fun and mcflurry oreo <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_HWq-LnZhNME/SliDcBg1KkI/AAAAAAAAAJo/KHE0iMh2YBA/s1600-h/11072009.jpg">

My fugly face without make up and purposely took a picture of my mama sleeping.. look at her.. she is so super comel.. yii i love her a lot :)

Love,

keshin

HONEY HONEY!!!

2009-07-10T19:52:00.001+08:00

Honey honey, how you thrill me, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, nearly kill me, ah-hah, honey honey
Id heard about you before
I wanted to know some more
And now I know what they mean, youre a love machine

Oh, you make me dizzy

weeeeeeeeeeee =)

Searching

2009-07-06T14:36:00.002+08:00

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Well i wonder whether it will really come true.. Sometimes I'm really blur but I should know what i want.. I'm waiting and searching for the brightest rainbow :)

I HATE U!!!

2009-06-29T13:52:00.004+08:00

I HATE YOU!!!

I SERIOUSLY HATE YOU!!!

WHY YOU KEEP BOTHERING ME???

CAN YOU PLEASE STOP MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE????

I HATE YOU!!!! YOU STUPID ALLERGY

another post just dedicated to MICHAEL JACKSON

may you rest in peace.. you will always be remembered.. You are the legend and inspiration of most people..

SMELLIES

2009-06-25T14:28:00.003+08:00

DON'T JUDGE A FUCKING BOOK BY ITS COVER!!!

You will never know what is hidden inside.. So don't simply judge..

BIATCH

2009-06-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel
underneath
innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

Chorus:
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your health, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I'm going to extremes
tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think you've got me figured out
the season's already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
and don't try to save me

Chorus

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
when you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numbed, I'm revived
can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Do you still want me??

Lucky

2009-06-19T12:07:00.003+08:00

Do you hear me?
I'm talking to u..
Across the water, across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying..

Peijin can u hear me?? :p
I was so surprise to receive your call.. I miss you badly..
I miss our yam cha session when i got back from college..
Gossiping session together with twinnie..
Remember our promise k!!! Keep each other update in our blog...

Another post just for my WINNIE dear..
I just wanna tell you no one can replace you in my heart in SeGi k...
You will be my bestest friend in SeGi.. You silly pig :)

I HEART You <3

What are you hiding from people??

2009-06-17T20:01:00.003+08:00

I just did this quiz in facebook and shows that im an emotional person.. Is it true?? or false??

Emotions

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside. you are just a weak human with feelings afterall

Butterflies in my stomach

2009-06-17T16:22:00.005+08:00

I'm kind of confused.. As usual.. Im a thinker..
But after everything happened... should i change??
All i know is that everything happened for a reason...
Things changed and i hope that i can wake up or just bang myself...
I didn't take things for granted and i treat everyone by using my sincere heart.. Either friendships or relationships.. I know i have the rights to receive the best from people around me.. Think twice before you plan to use me or hurt me.. I will not blame on you but please remember whatever you have done, GOD will always see and judge you..

AND this is not the first time here...

Thanks a lot for babes that supported me through out my sorrows.. u should know who you are as i think i don't need to mention.. I always love u babes.. I really cherish moments that we shared either the happy or sad ones.. As i believe we will be together to share this for years..

FUCK

2009-06-08T20:45:00.001+08:00

FUCK and FUCK and FUCK!!!!!

SOOOOOO WHATTT????

CONTINUE FUCKING.................

LOST OF WORDS

2009-05-25T13:12:00.003+08:00

I have this unexplainable feelings....

Im lOST?? IM blindly folded?? Im stupid?? Im EGO??

WTF!!!!

Im truly lost and i need to get back to the right track once again...

Finally

2009-05-06T17:41:00.008+08:00

Sorry for the late update... just passed my assignment sickness and finally finals!!!! woohoo.. finally i smells freedom and it will only last for 2.5weeks.. :( but at least there is a holiday since im stucked in college from jan.. weeee...

So previously i was busy with my group assignment. My group members are Isabel, Michelle Tee, Winnie and Yvonne.. Well i pity Mich and Yvonne because they drew all the drawings and colorings. I would say this presentation really drove all of us mad as me n Sasabell was busy with the scripts which we almost bang our head together..

This is our final PRESENTATION SLIDES :

Don't you think its super nice??? haha.. well hopefully all of us can score well in this presentation and oso our finals...

WoooHooooo..

Im so so so done with my Political Science and News Reporting...
Im so so so so tired and now i can finally relax.... weeeeeeeeeeeee.....

Planning to visit Sasabell next week in ipoh and hopefully penang for Mich... teehheee.. More updates soon :)

Muackssss

Crappy

2009-04-23T17:37:00.002+08:00

omg crap..... im so so so sleepy.. am super tired!!!!! what the hell.. im blur and stoning all day long... now im in old town again and im like old town loyal customer.. i think they should just give me their vvip card and special discounts or else im gonna pk very very sooon...

well wanna know what is making me so sick n tired????

*********tadaa**********

TO BE CONTINUE...........

wahhh laaaaa

2009-04-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

new life, new start...

muackssss... love babes that supported me for a long time..

a lil moment in my life

Just came across

FML

SHIT

Imbalance

Damage

* FREEDOM *

Unchained door

D.E.M.O.T.I.V.A.T.E.D

Malas

Longkang

emo ammo elmo

*winks*

Magical moments

Life is such a pain in ASS

...................................

Malas

PeiJin Tan

Tell Him

*UPDATES*

1st Monthiversary

Because you loved me

ouch

*scratch scratch*

Overwhelmed

Sugar rush

Babes

Words

Thank god i found you

Birthday

1 down

A slice of me

moments

*updates*

Finally

Here I am

Key

breathe

Could it be you??

Tug-of-war

What matters the most???

As im falling

From today onwards

50-50

*updates*

heart racing

Sakit

As sweet as lollipop!!!

*sobs*

A lil Confession

K.C.U.F

Apa ni???

I love you

UNPREDICTABLE

Your memories doesn't belongs to me

Silence

Never Ever

<3

Productive holiday

:'(

Judgmental

Out of nowhere

I wanted you

Final decision

arghhhhh

*slap slap*

*melts*

Additional

Thoughts

Fear and Dilemma

:'(

DIVORCED

Random

HONEY HONEY!!!

Searching

I HATE U!!!

SMELLIES

BIATCH

Lucky

What are you hiding from people??

winks

UPDATES

scratch scratch

updates

updates

sobs

slap slap

melts