Just came across

I still remember how people pulling me down mentally and physically.. I was left torn apart..

It hurts when it was from the people that you loved and trusted the most..

I was so fed up with them..

because I know there is no point for letting people to pull down and i must trust myself..

There is no point to pity myself and for better i must prove to them everything is wrong..

Thanked god for sending me good friends besides me.. They were my best companion and everything for me.. People always say that family know the best for us and understand us the most.. But yet i think that my best friend understand me the most and being there for me without fail..

FML

F*** i've never been this fat after 4 years.. I promised myself i need to slim down at least 5kgs before JINJIN's back!!! and i can't wait to see her :)

Btw, i miss wearing my white shorts and my red tops!!! those were my fav but now i can't wear neither of it.. F***..

This is so depressing... wtf... FML

D.E.T.E.R.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N

SHIT

Can you please tell me how to like a person that making you so depressed?
How can i pretend to be happy when i am unhappy?
How to show my unhappy face with a smiley face?
I can't fake it...
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
I need someone to understand me... even though you had ask me to ignore but how can i when i need to face them daily? I am a person with feelings especially i am more to sensitive...






Best to cover myself inside a blanket and start sobbing.. FUCK it!!!

Imbalance

*FUCK!*
I don't know what is wrong with me...
My mood swings like in directional wind...
I really hate it...
I am so sorry B for screaming and yelling at you..




DAMN!!!

Damage

It hurts when i confront what i dislikes..
Maybe i'm too over but i want the best for him..

but i still love u lots..

* FREEDOM *

1 DAY i will BE

*gembira-nyer*

*amboi-amboi tengah berangan*

:p

Unchained door

God closed the door and will it be open again??




It has been a question for me ever since shits happened in this 2 weeks..



You gave me everything but you shove it..



I'm confused....

D.E.M.O.T.I.V.A.T.E.D

*DENG*

After a week plus of exercising and cutting down my food...

wtf i gained 2kgs..

This is so DEPRESSING...

SHIT!!!!!

:'(

I AM SO S.A.D!!!

i Hate my weight gain!!!

Malas

Damn!!! I am gettin lazier..

I procrastinate a lot.....

I'm officially a lazy PIG...

Izit because of the weight gained that causes me became so lazy??

I wonder....

Longkang

I think i am worn out.. I am emotionally drained..

I am just so sick of standing in people's shoe and not taking care of my own feelings..

Especially, when i am not being appreciated and being degraded..

It hurts and i should start putting my own shield..

Lesson should be learnt and not to repeat..

So learn from mistakes..



Just foook all the shooooot....




P/s: I am so sorry..

emo ammo elmo

I just don't feel gooood...

*winks*

YES!!!!
hehe finally i almost fulfill my wishlist for this year :)
....weee....


Finally,




~new handbag~








~DKNY sunnies~









yay!!! with special love for my baby for driving me around.. plus spoiling me :)

Magical moments

Dreaming, I must be dreaming
or am I really lying here with you?
Baby, you take me in your arms
And though I'm wide awake
I know my dream is coming true
And Oh I just fall in love again
just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go I just fall in love again
and when I do, I can't help myself
I fall in love with you
Magic, it must be magic
The way I hold you when the night just seems to fly
Easy for you to take me to a star
Heaven is that moment when I look into your eyes.
And Oh I just fall in love again
just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go I just fall in love again
and when I do, I can't help myself
I fall in love with you
Can't help myself
I fall in love with you

Life is such a pain in ASS

WTH!!! FML when i think of the result!!!
*sobs*
dean list sudah terbang away, cgpa jatuh masuk longkang...
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
AKU BENCI BETOI DENGAN POMPUAN ITU!!!!
ITU MEDIA POMPUAN
Because of you, i am depressed!!!







I SERIOUSLY NEED SHOPPING THERAPY!!!!
ANYONE??
Where is my kakis?
moomoo?eggegg?mien?billy?











However, with you, the dark sky seems to be brighter whenever i'm down :)
LOVE YOU, B!!

...................................

AKU NI BODOH!!!!
please prove to me that i am not that dumb in life...

Malas

Kinda malas to update but will update soon after my class resume...
haha!!!
so lame

PeiJin Tan

Dear, I'm so sorry that i make you feel that way.. Do you still remember our promise before you leaved to UK?? No matter what happen we will always be as close as last time.. I do not know what happen but i still keep myself update through you fb.. Streamyx suxs all the time that caused a lot of problems.. There is no gap between us alright.. Please don't think of this.. Because no matter what you are still my best friend.. What do you think of 10yrs friendship??? It is not easy to build but because of our trust to maintain our friendship alright.. Don't be emo I am waiting for your arrival.. Clock is ticking and I'm waiting for you to come back from UK...
TAN PEIJIN don't be siao k!!!! don't think too much.. or else I am so gonna spank your ass kao kao!!! No matter what I love u lots!!!! Do you still remember Jason Mraz's song??? our song?? LUCKY!!! the lyrics is just for us alright!!!

Tell Him

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's mean to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has today.

Never let him go

*UPDATES*

Gosh, ah moi been a lazy ass and also a sick pig for quite sometime.. Finally, i am hardworking for a day to update my blog!!! :p




1st: My birthday celebration

On the 27th November 2009,



With my gang in fitou, Desa Parkcity :)
Well that night i had a great celebration with them and im so drunk too after that night :p
Drank too much for the action game.. aiks.. regretted for drinking that much plus I humiliated myself in front of sepet :(



28th November 2009,



With my kwah sepet in La Casa, Desa Parkcity..
Peijin, Haw Lun and him pakat and gave me a big surprise :)
Peijin and Haw Lun bought me a Fossil Watch for my 21st,
B, gave me a bouquet of roses and a musical box..
After the dinner, both of us went for Twilight!!!
OMFG, Jacob's body is super CHUN!!!!


29th November 2009

Morning, went for breakfast for my family and night time B, fetch me out and celebrated with me.. His surprise was super duper funny in a way.. He wanted to bring me to Kl Tower for celebration but when i entered his car.. He was happily telling me and then he ask me, " IS KL TOWER IN FEDERAL HOTEL?" OMFG that is so super hilarious can?? He thought that KL Tower is in Federal Hotel.. Neways, we went to Kl Tower but it was fully booked due to someone's wedding.. So ended up, we went to Pavillion's Sakae Sushi.. Haha as he promised memorable 21st... but because of his funny blur part..

*aiks, i was so excited until i forgot to take pictures with him :(*



30th November 2009



Bora Asmara, Tmn Tun with my diamonds :)

Wee we had a great time there and i likey the ambiance there :)
Super memorable and they gave me a present surprise.. tadaaa its a sexy baju tidur :p
Aiks apa they mau ah?? kekekeke



1st December 2009,



Secret Recipe with my Winnie dear :)

Hehe, she asked me out and we was supposedly going to another italian restaurant but unfortunately it was closed and you can see how cute was Winnie's disappointed facey :p
Then, we went to secret recipe and makan.. She and Li Wei bought me 2 headbands :) yay they knew that i likey headbands <3


Last but not least,
4th December 2009,



My crib with my kepong jimuis.. Unfortunately, Jing li is not here :( Kinda miss her..
Miss her weird facial expression that make me laughed like mad woman.. kekeke



Peeps, If you wanna see more pictures pls view it through my facebook.. hehe






Then,
after my birthday celebrations, I'm so super f***ed up with my exams and i"m super tired and sick for a week plus.. *sobs* But i would like to say tq very very muchie to my sepet for taking care of me during my "dying time" because i was so super sick.. I almost can't attend both of my papers.. I fainted twice for my Graphic design paper in the morning before my paper... It was super scary k!!!! Arghhhh, now after the dying moments and now i'm super bored for my holiday!!! No work No money No place to go!!! I wanna go for a holiday!!!! Ish I am super duper desperate for a retreat!!!!! :(




WISH ME LUCK!!

1st Monthiversary

Happy 1st Monthiversary B!!!!















Muacks!!!